Posted by: JulieAloha | May 23, 2017

365 Gratitude Project – Day 143: Today

May 23, 2017

There was a show I loved, “Touched by an Angel” and an episode called Jones vs. God in which Monica is a witness for God on trial in a drought stricken town, and after being shouted at and belittled and anguished, she prays, “Dear God, I’m sorry for my anger and frustration, but I wanted to thank you for this day – this horrible, awful, hot, sticky, terrible day in which I’ve been totally, totally humiliated, because if it wasn’t for you I wouldn’t have had any day at all. So I thank you. Love, Monica. Amen.”

This was a long, frustrating day, but it was a day I woke to light and filled my lungs with air and ate food and did my work, a day I muddled through with stress and depression and anger and sorrow – but it was a day I wouldn’t have had if I’d followed through with my plans to allow myself to die last winter, when I hated my life and didn’t see any reason to continue. I stayed because God created this day for me, for all the days before and all the days to come and it behooves me to be here for as long as His plan intends. 

So. Thank you, Father, for this long, irritatingly frustrating and interminable day in which you’ve been waiting for me to arrive because you knew I would need you today. Love, Julie. Amen


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